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AS MUCH AS YOU DID BEFORE

by Cero Ismael

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1.
DESPERATION 01:33
Desperation haunts me Everything is getting too close I thought it was something Still we ended up with nothing I need you to come inside Then we put it all aside I had me some, but I need more But who gon open up the door? Did I Turn into a monster? Love what happened to me? Everything is feeling further Tell where you've been And tell me where do you get touched I'm applying all the pressure Yea I'm kind of in a rush Tell me, Are you insecure? Cause you've been Seeking, searching and you want some more It's all just feeling cold as my blood I'm drained as ever while you catch me sipping on mud, uhh Desperation haunts me Everything is getting too close I thought it was something Still we ended up with nothing I need you to come inside Then we put it all aside I had me some, but I need more But who gon open up the door?
2.
PUBLIK 02:02
Hiding in deeper inside the matras I'm hoping that you've been catching up See my head it's been out of service I'm always I'm out here working How much is there all left of me? Got me thinking what we could be I ain't feeling none That's ecstasy Want to live inside a memory I'm dancing My face too That's plastic That's all new But feeling of it I love it Sweating and I'm yelling I mean it up here in publik Hiding in deeper inside the matras I'm hoping that you've been catching up See my head it's been out of service I'm always I'm out here working
3.
Fighting demons on a sunday while you up in church My depression makes me wonder how much is it worth Baptised and cleansed putting in different work I really hope you're getting everything that you deserve I never understood, But now I do It's hard to, Ask me why But I feel blue You're dodging Everything That's nothing new but this writing and these flaws They remind me of you I got my Hands of my mother Magnificent strength They say I look just like you They can see it in length I run around with a broken heart There's nothing bend I'm having problems with starting I panic bout the end Did you forget bout me cause you got saved? Don't you forget bout me Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved Yeah Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved Don't you forget bout me Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved I got Problems that I own Problems that are hers Buying happiness Got up in my purse I tried to tell ya some I haven't found the words Hmm I'm searching for the words I'm Stuck at 5 And I'm stuck at 3 I Needed your help, That's why you're calling me Egocentric either way, That's how far I can see Tell me where should I be Did you forget bout me cause you got saved? Don't you forget bout me Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved Yeah Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved Don't you forget bout me Don't you forget bout me cause you got saved
4.
DAVE BUDHA 01:58
5.
SAM 02:40
We were good for a while Maybe a while is just fine Maybe that's all it could have been Oh please show me where to begin Cause My troubled past keeps haunting me My troubled past keeps haunting me My troubled past keeps haunting me My troubled past keeps haunting me Sometimes I feel like we're both on different pages, Wish I could revert changes, Cause I'm so sick of missing you And here I am Walked away from confrontation Had a better plan Way too scared to open curtains In this house with Sam Look at all the damage Swear I'm trying but I can't It's a lie that the pain seem to heal itself Cause I've been in this state of mind since the age of 12 Matter of fact I feel like dying of my mental health I've been yelling, crying, shouting, I need metal help A whole sense of self worth disappears When your life only revolves around tears I never needed much, Just wanting you near, I traded everything to dance with my fears
6.
IF IT ENDS 02:47
If it all ends here at least there was time spent If it all ends now Just know that I'm always there for you And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here I know how you feel You say I don't really think you do but I know that this is real Always try to have a conversation then it's leading up to nothing Where do I begin where do I start Always fall short when it's us apart Ahh, ahh don't break my heart If it all ends here at least there was time spent If it all ends now Just know that I'm always there for you And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here Do you really love me Do you really love me Do you really love me like I'm loving you Do you really love me Do you really love me Do you really love me like I'm loving you and i'm not alone If it all ends here at least there was time spent If it all ends now Just know that I'm always there for you And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here And I'm not alone with you my dear No I'm not alone Cause you're always here do you really love me do you really love me do you really love me do you really love me
7.
I UNDERSTAND 02:24
You could've stay around But you chose to leave And I understand You could've stay But you needed to space And I understand Uncomfortable occasions led to this Seeking for a lot but you're the one I always How did we end up here in the first place It's moving too fast and you confirm that Now I can't keep up, no This emptiness I can't get rid of it I'm out here living it and you're still thinking that I lie about it I really wish that things were different I can't get time back so mean it when you say you hold me down You could've stay around But you chose to leave And I understand You could've stay But you needed to space And I understand How do I treat ya? Complete stranger? My new house neighbour? Someone I tell later? And end up not coming? I'm stilling running From myself and what's best for me Therapy said it'll set me free But I defend cause I'm in deep It's always the same It's always the pain But who takes the blame? It's always the same It's always the pain But who takes the blame? You could've stay around But you chose to leave And I understand You could've stay But you needed to space And I understand You could've stay around But you chose to leave And I understand You could've stay But you needed to space And I understand
8.
PLANS FOR US 02:56
Oh shattered dreams But you will find your peace Look at my soul Ain't that much to leave Just incase you ever make up your mind I'm right here Not that hard to find Plans for us Yea, I had plans for us And they all got cancelled But I had plans for us And they caught by the wind And they got put it in the bin And they can say what they want But I done gave you everything My life and your life got a different size and shape I've been tryna heal it But I'm only hitting the break We had white dreams Even wider dreams but we got overthrown It's hard to see myself I can't face myself when I'm all alone It's foul that's coming out of my mouth Tell me where you suffer, you're hiding out in the south? I've been telling lies, Can't tell you what that's about I'm falling when I'm running So now I'm pointing em out I done slept with guilt Oh the trip is real And my life is moving, But I'm standing still Now my conscience here And I can't fake the feel It might sound surreal But oh baby I had Plans for us Yea, I had plans for us And they all got cancelled But I had plans for us And they caught by the wind And they got put it in the bin And they can say what they want But I done gave you everything
9.
I feel tiny and fragile And that's most of the time, yeah I'm still stuck in my ways And I just hope that you can help out When I'm climbing I feel tiny and fragile And that's most of the time, yeah Still stuck in my ways And I just hope that you can help out When I'm climbing Starve of love or die of luck Imagine us We're piling up It gets me far the thought of us Unfortunately The time up I hear it in your voice I'm a troubled boy Young damaged boy Waiting to increase But nothing got enhanced Yea It's all up in my hands I feel tiny and fragile And that's most of the time, yeah I'm still stuck in my ways And I just hope that you can help out When I'm climbing I feel tiny and fragile And that's most of the time, yeah Still stuck in my ways And I just hope that you can help out When I'm climbing
10.
I hate this side But I always seem to end up here We Can't decide So we always seem to end up here They had me on meds And took me off meds Man I thought the ending really was near And I really thought we spoke about my problems and shit But the shit returns every year See I've been on drugs And I've been off drugs Stuck in forever weekend Is there someone that can dial 13, man I'm swimming in the deep end I will keep you By my side I will keep you Hold you tight I will keep you Stay alive I will keep you
11.
SD0109 01:30
What if this is my last What if i jump of edge over shit in the past What if we never feel the feelings we once had All my insecurities I rumble with that Ye I still rumble with that I met me someone She got new breast The split up was messy shouldn't mention that I really mean it The voice it got depth Still in the same room right before you left Experiment with all type shit yea it's bad for me They say im self destrutive baby but it's hard to see I thought I had it all And then I lost all Is it really real or are you clapping before the fall?

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released March 25, 2022

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